What Is There To Write About?

I'm having one of those days... the type of day where you pause because you're not necessarily sure you have anything good to say.

I struggle a lot when I have days like this and I have to write for The Mess. I struggle, one because it's hard, and two because I feel guilty when I can't come to the table with pure positivity. But honestly, I think we all know that, that is unrealistic- to be purely positive 100% of the time. I am also aware that if that were the case, then this blog wouldn't be very messy, would it?

I have to remind myself that My Mess is actually for my mess. So, here it is. I am an extra stressed bean, just trying my best to get into a new routine of things with an overly heavy plate. Knowing that and having some free time today, I took the day to try and treat myself extra special. I tried to do nicer, more intentional, things for myself and it really did help... until I sat in front of the computer to write this. When I did that, I realized that the road ahead is going to be bumpy, but doable. That was a positive thought, but it somehow left me feeling very tired. Have you had those moments?

I bet you have. I also bet you've had worse moments, I know I have. But then I remembered the nicer things I did for myself today. The little victories, the more, probably meaningless moments, and I find that those meant a whole heck of a lot more than I gave them credit for. Without them, would I have been able to write this article? Or would I have cancelled like the past couple weeks? I can't say with confidence what the answer is, and frankly it doesn't matter- I did write this. That's what matters. Me getting back up will always matter. YOU getting back up will always matter. What doesn't matter, is how long you've been down, it doesn't matter what knocked you down to begin with, and it definitely doesn't matter what will knock you down next time. Because there will be a next time... we have to know that. Even if it hurts, we have to acknowledge that the downs happen, and then we need to equally acknowledge that the good happens too.

I often find that the latter is what people most struggle with. Acknowledging the good when you're in the midst of the bad can be...difficult, for lack of better terms. But they will come back around. It's the glimmer of hope to look forward to. So, if you find yourself having "one of those days", be kinder to yourself. Give yourself a gift, it doesn't have to be big. And if you find that maybe you're able to get up, even if for just long enough to write about not knowing what else to write about, then allow yourself the win. Because it is a win. I'm proud of you. I'm proud of me too today, and I don't know if I'll be able to, but I will try to be proud of myself tomorrow too. What do you want to do?

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Thank you so much for joining me for this brief and sappy installment of The Mess. I always appreciate anyone who joins me on these particularly messy days, so thank you. We have a new week ahead of us so let's try our best! I hope you have a great week, I will be back Wednesday with some Nerdom, if you missed today's Rantt, never fear that is uploaded to Instagram and Facebook for you to check out anytime you want! But in the mean time, stay safe, and stay messy my friends.